I'm Going On A Journey....

And what I hope to find is , Where is the Me that belongs to I ?

And throughout this long long journey I hope to never ever cry .

Nor will I tend to let my emotions bottle up & explode.

Cause nothing must stop me from walking down my mind's road

After months of walking on roads& finally reaching that big old sign

Ya know ? the one that says ''dead end'' & somewhat alerts the mind,

I've reached it and still haven't found this dream person I call me

So an extention to this long long journey is what I'd like to see.

I've decided to climb mountains, hoping that Me is at the top

Finding Me is an accomplishment bigger& greater than any cyclop .

After climbing the mountain I realized Me still remains no where to be found

& how Me leaves no footprints,markings or any types&forms of sound

I've pretty much checked everywhere, but Me's favorite place called the ocean

So I take a dive in this red water&realize it's able to control emotion .

While swimming around, good&bad memories came striking towards I

Their impact on I, was so severe that underwater I began to cry

Swimming to sit on the nice-dry surface was my next decision.

As I'm sitting on the surface I rub my eyes to fix my blurred vision.

I cant find Me and my vision is fixed so I'll just admire the view

After observing I come to just give up & say adieu adieu

So I get up and look into the water hoping to see my reflection

Before I left, I realized that wasnt my face, so its was time for a mind inspection

I thought & I thought & I thought & then my light bulb became brightnen

I saw that I've become someone very different, someone beyond frightnen

It all happened while trying to find Me, when Me was inside I the whole time.

I wish I were able to go back in time, &had refused to search, walk, swim & climb.

But unfortunately I can not, but I can say '' I was going on a long long journey to find me and a monster was all I got to really find and see ''

- Thee Observer

UNFINISHEDDD/ NEEDS WORK / DONT KNOW WHERE I WAS GOING WITH THIS *

The word .

What exactly is the word ? B L O G G E R has become the new word. Everyone questions the word blogger and discusses it negatively and positively. Why exactly did everyone want to become a blogger ? That's the question everyone has been asking and basing most of their discussion topics about . Most say to keep in contact with others, while the others say cause everyone else has it / have nothing better to do online, then a handful say to just look at blogs and criticize other blogs, and then there's very few people who say they want to express themselves more. They're all understandable and legit reasons why most people create accounts on websites like myspace, facebook, migente, twitter and etc. But the most talked about reason why people created blogs is the one on how others would like to express themselves more. The people who've made a blog because of it, take their time fully thinking about what they're gonna write. Not only that but plan how they would like to set it up and think if its gonna leave an impact on the reader or make them think. Which I honestly think is cool because they do it whether or not people read them or give them positive/negative feedback. But the bad thing is how some people doubt them. The doubters discuss how expressing themselves online is pointless because they're able to it in person. Another thing mentioned is how anybody can put up quotes, pictures or take a topic from online website and paraphrase it. All that may be true, but that's just the way life is. Everything is paraphrased / changed a little [ in the author / manufacturer's opinion or point of view ] in order for it to seem unique. Like books for an example. If you grab a book I bet there's another book with the same theme and summary. The only difference would be the characters, setting, author, cover, page length and title. But then when something totally different is brought to some people, it'll seem too bizarre to them that they wouldn't even want to think about it's positive side and just look for the negatives/criticize it. Which is weird because then it'll just make it seem like those people would want everything / everyone to be the same without even really realizing it. Which would be pretty boring, don't you think ? Hm` but this is just my observation. Yours is yours and mine is mine and I'll leave it at that.

Sexual Indifference

Note to reader- Since I may not be able to blog tomorrow, Ive decided to post this one up early *

''Fuck love'', ''i dont need that neegga'' , ''i dont need that beeotch'' . Common phrases heard by the boys and girls of today's society. Turns out that the boys get hurt and become players to try and find their soulmates. While the others just become players to have good wholesome fun just as some girls do. This aggrivates girls, but they're the ones who cause it so why complain ? Girls who often get hurt decide to put themselves out there out there or just go down the rainbow path. But honestly, people can't convert themselves to be homosexuals. Its either you always had the homosexuality in you, or your just straight. Girls who go down the rainbow path to heal their pain or escape from their relationship problems are just wasting time. They're messing around / using real homosexuals just because they need to be comforted at their time of need. Which I truly think isnt fair to those homosexuals who are looking for real love. Basically these people are just creating a sexual indifference [ a lost of interest in a person sexually/ intimately ] which is BS and a waste of time . People should just take love's pain as it is to enjoy it in the end. Whether or not it takes a person days, months, and years to find that one person they love. When they find that person, they'll realize it was worth doing so. Cause Im pretty sure its better than getting hurt constantly and entering a deep state of depression/solitude, right ?

An Unregretful Misery Or Not ?

"Suffering is but another name for the teaching of experience, which is the parent of instruction and the schoolmaster of life .” - Horace

Hmm life ? Life's something we all experience, and something we all pretty much take for granted. We make mistakes and say ''fuck it'' and then sometimes even continue to make the same mistake without realizing it until it begins to create a big impact on our lives. Some live their lives miserably and are able to get of hold of anything they need, but decide not to while the others live their lives peacefully with only a few regrets. Now the question is, can someone live life miserably with no regrets because they've learned so much from their sufferings ? Thats something I'm unsure of, but I'm sure its possible. An unregretful misery is what I think that possibility is called. But I think most of the rich and famous go through this. Since they're lives are pretty rough. Come'on now, its a known fact that its harder for them to find love, friends, and a way to express their inner person without getting criticized by the world. And not to forget the pressure put on them by fans, supporters, and better yet the publicity. Actor ''Macaulay Culkin'' [ little boy from Home Alone ] has been miserable throughout his whole life. He's been used by his parents as a trophy, they've over-worked him with the whole acting buisness to take some of his earnings and they've stopped him from removing the name ''Child Molestor'' from one of his bestest friends in the world. At this very moment, his an adult who now fully understands everything that went on in his life and doesnt depend on his parents any longer, but is still living life as if he still did. He's learned from his sufferings but still continues to suffer extensively since he assumes there's nothing more he can do and that he's suffered so much that there's no pain left but only knowledge remaining. Then again there's an ordinary teen who has lost the person she loved the most and is stuck with a narrow-minded parent until she's legally an adult. There's no running from her misery nor is there a way to heal it. All there is, is to just deal with it and move on. But she just continues to make mistakes, but doesnt regret any of them because they've brought some bizarre and useful observations. Not only that but they've brought her one step closer to escaping her misery but seem to create a shame in the eyes of her peers. Could either one of the lives be examples of what I call ''an unregretful misery'' ?

Untitled Work

''She's the one with the bad luck and the bad timing

And no one knew she was capable of rhyming,

Type of girl no person would ever miss

Cause her presence seems to provide no bliss

Head down low is the way that she be walking ,

Screaming inside as the town keeps talking,

Her problems keep occuring and there not resolving,

So she walks as if the path behind her is dissolving''

- Written by Thee Observer

Judging A Book By It's Cover

* Note to reader - not a blogger so its my first time but april 7th 2009 has inspired me to do so.

Judgment-the ability to judge, make a decision, or form an opinion objectively, authoritatively, and wisely.

On the seventh of April I've realized that my judgment on a selected few was totally wrong . That day I was not only proven wrong but I was stunned by what I seen before my eyes . In front of me were about four young men who I thought were the most obnoxious and foolish boys in my sophmore class . Their conversations were so intellcutal, meaningful, and intriguing. Basically, convos that would teach you things, or make you realize and maybe understand whats going on right before your eyes. The one that surprised me the most was ''the loud one'' . At school he's loud or basically the kid that gets under everyone's skin, which made me not really wanna associate with him . But that day I saw a side of him I never knew actually existed inside of him . This showed me how not only me, but people in general got ''the loud one'' totally misunderstood due to what they see and not what they know. People basically judge people how they judge books. They either look at the front cover, back cover , or read the first page. People don't actually take the time to at least read the first chapter to actually know what the book is about because books do have turning points. But my point is not to judge a person from what you heard nor seen most of the time because people can surprise you just as books do.

''Happiness cannot come from without. It must come from within. It is not what we see and touch or that which others do for us which makes us happy; it is that which we think and feel and do, first for the other fellow and then for ourselves ." - Helen Keller